Ignorance is bliss~

Sorry... Forgot on what to write the moment I login to post my new blog...

Well, never mind about that, it's not that I care about what'll happen to me anyway. For the whole recent years I've been very not-so-talkative and very bad with socializing. Pretty much I can say to myself, I'm an anti-social person.

Reason why I've become such person? It never happen before before I hit puberty on every circumstances. Let's say I've inhibit those habit when my family moved to another town in another district because of work and yes, we kids have to tag along as well.

What happen afterwards? Total noobians (you don't have to understand the meaning for it) if you ask me. I speak with different dialect at that town and when some people can't easily accept my way of speaking, it left a trauma inside me. Then when some people approach me, I can't put into words for replying his question. The habit soon got worse and I've become a very mute person everywhere except in my home.

I can't seem to break the ice easily even with my best friends were around. I can't express my feeling very well and felt that I was left alone whenever we're in a group conversation. And that... is my weakness...

Fallen for depression, I didn't do anything to correct it, instead... I let it grow inside me and starting to neglect the real world and most of the time I jumped into another world called imagination. Inside there, I feel really calm and I can imagine almost everything... Being a hero, piloting a robot, have superpower, everything I can imagine of. Anime, manga and games were fuel for my imagination. It's like... when I got separated from those 3 elements, I can't get a hold of myself and sometimes I'll be in total depression...

When that happen, I neglect my studies, focusing on drawing cartoons... Goofing around, imagining things... That's my life cycle when I was still a high school student. When I graduated from school, I jumped into university, hoping that I can remove those despair I had before I graduated. Instead, it overcome me first, unable to cope with changes in my lifestyle.

Because of that, I can't keep up with my studies and I fail on the subjects where my mind can't feel the most of it. 2 years later, I couldn't go on any further and I literally quit college and got scolded for my action. No matter what I do, I can't seem to 'want to continue studying' afterwards.

Now I'm just getting myself a lowlife job when I can earned some cash for living but pretty much fun to work with since it's all about computer and stuff. I just hope that I can stay there long enough to make me a real 'adult'... I've been living in a nutshell for so long as I can remember and I want to changes, slowly where i can cope sooner or later and when I realize it, I've changed that much...

Thanks for everyone especially my friends and family for supporting this no good person during those years I've been ignorance, lazy, stupid, anything you might want to call me. Thank you very much... ~if this post is readed...

Restarted and Reincarnated

Heh, for guys that have known me from this blog you're reading right now, that's mean that you guys are not quite surprise by seeing this old missing blog came to life for the second time...

As much if you don't know, I still blogging from time to time at another blog created by me specifically for anime/manga/games stuff. AerialSight but that was it. In that blog, I didn't write about myself so I felt I need to release my frustuation in something. Facebook were being public to everyone so I kinda shy to say that there but I still Twitting from time to time so follow my Twitter if you're really a stalker... (I don't mind!!)

Another reason why I revived such old blog back??

Just like above, AerialSight was purely for anime, manga and games purpose so I can't just bluntly post something about myself in there. It was meant for that sole purpose only, no more than that. Soooo, I need another blog to write something... That's when I think back about my first blog here and decided to use it back. **Glad anyone didn't use my old Blog link ^^

Restarted and Reincarnated?

Well, I need a one big title of reason to justify the rebirth of my old blog and that's when I started to come up with a weird name but badass in the side...

Why delete old blog before reviving it?

A lot of reason actually... My old blog were being spam by unknown comments and most of them were *erotic stuff (somethinig like promoting s*x and n*d*ty) and even I marked my own blog as NOT SAFE anymore. And also, I got a lot of junk in there and I had to delete them anyway so why clean them up when you want to start with new blog and have the option to delete the whole blog...

Why you have so many reasons and excuses?

It's part of me. I can't just simply ignore it and telling everyone 'I don't care about a damn thing I'm thinking' right?? Not only it would hurt me in the inside, it also make the person pissed off, and that could make me in a lot more trouble.

Addicted to anime?

Here's a little back story of mine. When I was 11, I was obsessed with Cartoon Network so much that I watch every show in that channel, didn't care whether it's boring or replay. And also back then, I classify cartoon as cartoon, anime as cartoon because I didn't know what anime was before till I was 15. Then Astro promote their new channel and one of it is Animax. Well I was so excited that a new cartoon channel is coming soon till it finally aired on 12 midnight with Yu Yu Hakusho anime.

Then, I started to think back and say to myself, "What's the difference between this cartoon (Anime) and that cartoon (CN)?" Little by little I was actually began to realize, "This cartoon is more enjoyable to watch than that cartoon. I think I start to like it. Afterwards, I start to categorize this cartoon as 'Anime' and that cartoon as 'US cartoon' and leaving Cartoon Network channel for good and gone to Animax till the free subscription is over. At least I was able to enjoy my all-time favourite anime during the period, ウエキのほうそく (The Law of Ueki)

Then, I started to watch anime in various means... Watch online, watch on local channel, download it, buy it's DVD Box and even play some of games related to the anime. During that time also I was obsessed to manga as well.

Do you enjoy anime with friends?

Not really... In my place and most of my friends didn't like anime and read manga much as I do. They always say anime is crappy and bla... bla... bla... To avoid that, I watch alone and enjoying it by myself. Even my little brother doesn't like anime anymore. **Trap in despair At the very least, I can still contact my online friends about アニメ、万が

Eroge and possibly... H-stuff?

I can't really say I hate them. I do play visual novels (galge) and will come across H-Scene in the game. **Damn galge this days always have H-Scene but really, I don't mind about it... If I come across some H-Scene I don't like, I just press Ctrl and let it skip over it... ^^

Anymore??

Enough for today... I got work you know... Stop asking weird stuff out of me but hey... I'm the one writing the questions... silly me...